It’s 18 days since my last cigarette. After a lifetime of smoking it is not an easy change.
Sure, I gave up once.. for nearly a year and was devastated that I started again. Yes, I had my reasons: I was in Africa visiting my sick mother, who was a heavy smoker, and I doubted would see her again. The bottom line was I was not strong enough to ignore “the look”. It was the same look I can remember my aunt used to give me when I chose not to have a drink with her at 12 noon or 5pm. Strange thing was that I was strong enough to resist my aunt’s look but your mother is your mother!
I chose to join her so I am not “blaming”. Just stating the fact of why I started again. That was nearly 15 years ago and I really wish I could tell you that I have made a concerted effort to stop since then.
I am really aware of my weight this time because normally I make sure I lose 20 lbs before I quit. Because of my sudden decision, I didn’t do it this time and I was already overweight before I quit. Such is the challenge. I am working to not put on any more weight. It will mean some clever avoidances and probably some exercise!
My body… is carrying a lot of weight so I cannot put even more on. Given a choice between smoking and weight I will go with weight, for now but I am working to not do either.
My body is…capable of coping with the new lifestyle so that I can be healthier and have more energy
My body is…not going to need to sabotage my mind and visa versa…this time. My discipline can withstand the temptation
My body is…much stronger than it used to be and is strong enough to handle all these changes
My body is…mine and is a reflection of my choices. I chose to change my body this year.
Lesson learned: Sometimes the reason you feel terrible is because you have the ‘flu… not that you are suffering from withdrawal symptoms!
* pending the end-of-month adjustments by YouTube for a glitch they had during the month – could dramatically change figures… downward!
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