I know, it’s been a while since I wrote and I hate excuses as much as you do!
So I am not going to waste your time with excuses – I will just apologize to those of you who enjoy the written word as much as the vlogs. In the past couple of months I have done a lot of learning and a lot of looking at the world around me. As usual, I have come out of the time stronger than before. I have learned that people can just drop you in a heartbeat when it suits them, others can give you hours of unexpected time, some can hit incredibly hard times and still have a sense of humour.
I learned that one viewer visiting the broadcast can give us a great idea but if I do nothing with it it is just that… an idea. I am going to start our Free Bay page today! Free Bay is for viewers who have a sense of humour/humor and a post office box. Put your screen name and your post office box address (no real names) and then put what you would like to “collect” from fellow viewers. We have heard about fridge magnets, key rings, wines, cheeses and, of course, licorice!! To name just a few things that made us smile. We just thought it would be a fun thing to be able to send someone a ‘gift’
I have learned that even my hard-working camera can give up the ghost and die on me. When I thought of how many hours it had given me over the past year I cannot say I was surprised. I also didn’t feel like it was a lessor product. In fact, I bought the upgrade of my previous camera. It was fun to use and gave me a lot of good vids. I reward good behaviour! Even if the product dies of hard work. Pity it did it the month after the warranty ran out.
I always knew that the fall and winter would be harder on dear BeanBean. He is struggling a little more and I have had to increase his meds to compensate. It is a heartbreaking thing to do because each time I increase it I am equally lessening his time with me for there is a limit to how much I can give him. I am up to close to 3/4 of his total allocation, based on his weight. I am hoping that this dosage will hold him over the fall and winter because, if it does, then we might be able to stay together for another year. Obviously, if I have to keep increasing it over the winter we will be running out of time together. So sad. We have come so far.
We have seen some wonderful growth from various members of the broadcast club. Lesley overcame her fear of the outside world enough to walk down her garden and close the gate. She looked over the fence and gave us the greatest smile! Roseann showed us a rare moment of total vulnerability as she struggled with a diagnosis of glaucoma over and above everything else she copes with every day. Jen is just weeks away from being married and found that the ability to make decision suddenly was missing.
I sit in awe of how this group of people have supported one another. How they, through their support of others, have grown. They have new understanding of each other, of their previous judgments and their coping skills. We are beginning to have a lot of people visit the broadcasts and thanking us for the positive contribution we are making.
For my part, I am amazed at how much difference we can make in our little world. One person at a time. We know people are paying it forward. We hear the stories.
YouTube Update – Week 60