false friends

60. With apologies

I know, it’s been a while since I wrote and I hate excuses as much as you do!

So I am not going to waste your time with excuses – I will just apologize to those of you who enjoy the written word as much as the vlogs. In the past couple of months I have done a lot of learning and a lot of looking at the world around me. As usual, I have come out of the time stronger than before. I have learned that people can just drop you in a heartbeat when it suits them, others can give you hours of unexpected time, some can hit incredibly hard times and still have a sense of humour.

I learned that one viewer visiting the broadcast can give us a great idea but if I do nothing with it it is just that… an idea. I am going to start our Free Bay page today! Free Bay is for viewers who have a sense of humour/humor and a post office box. Put your screen name and your post office box address (no real names) and then put what you would like to “collect” from fellow viewers. We have heard about fridge magnets, key rings, wines, cheeses and, of course, licorice!! To name just a few things that made us smile. We just thought it would be a fun thing to be able to send someone a ‘gift’

I have learned that even my hard-working camera can give up the ghost and die on me. When I thought of how many hours it had given me over the past year I cannot say I was surprised. I also didn’t feel like it was a lessor product. In fact, I bought the upgrade of my previous camera. It was fun to use and gave me a lot of good vids. I reward good behaviour! Even if the product dies of hard work. Pity it did it the month after the warranty ran out.

I always knew that the fall and winter would be harder on dear BeanBean. He is struggling a little more and I have had to increase his meds to compensate. It is a heartbreaking thing to do because each time I increase it I am equally lessening his time with me for there is a limit to how much I can give him. I am up to close to 3/4 of his total allocation, based on his weight. I am hoping that this dosage will hold him over the fall and winter because, if it does, then we might be able to stay together for  another year. Obviously, if I have to keep increasing it over the winter we will be running out of time together. So sad. We have come so far.

We have seen some wonderful growth from various members of the broadcast club. Lesley overcame her fear of the outside world enough to walk down her garden and close the gate. She looked over the fence and gave us the greatest smile! Roseann showed us a rare moment of total vulnerability as she struggled with a diagnosis of glaucoma over and above everything else she copes with every day. Jen is just weeks away from being married and found that the ability to make decision suddenly was missing.

I sit in awe of how this group of people have supported one another. How they, through their support of others, have grown. They have new understanding of each other, of their previous judgments and their coping skills. We are beginning to have a lot of people visit the broadcasts and thanking us for the positive contribution we are making.

For my part, I am amazed at how much difference we can make in our little world. One person at a time. We know people are paying it forward. We hear the stories.

 

YouTube Update – Week 60

Subscribers             3,882
Views                        126,698 from 171 countries
Blog views                7318
Non-Smoking Days    282 with a saving of $3,017.47



35. My most embarrassing morning!

My one “son”, Cisco” always reminds me that life is truly about memories and not things. This was a memorable week.

I was truly excited to become a Canadian. Invited my “rent a family” (I do not have familly here in Canada, not blood family that is). Most pitched up to watch this memorable moment. However, to my horror it turned out that it was not the ceremony but rather a checking of all the original documents I had used for my application. Imagine my embarrassment. All these wonderful friends had given up precious time, fought through rush hour traffic and one had come all the way from the States. It was not to be!

We laughed until we cried and I knew that, in that moment, I had the most wonderful group of friends. They all took it in their stride. Sipped on their cofffes and chai teas and told stories. They make my world such a happy place and I am blessed to have them in my life. Blessed that they all just laughed it off as a “Sal moment” and assured me they would be there when the real day came.

My ego was a little bent out of shape and a little part of me felt so sad that I had wasted people’s time but I must say that, overall, it was a very funny memory and one I am sure I will not be allowed to forget in this lifetime!

It has beeen a huge couple of weeks on the YouTube site – particially due to a really big boost during one BlogTV session where we were the featured video. I struggled to answer all the questions, following that broadcast but stuck to it until I had cleared them all.

I love that we have created this little band of people when we do these broadcasts. It is wonderful to have a team of people around the help manage the hecklers and add wisdom when I am busy helping someone. I am so very grateful to them.

The more we do this the more I am convinced that this was a much needed tool for so many young people. The question, most of which are sent privately and not seen by the viewers to YouTube,  are both varied  and heartbreaking. I see so many youngsters being severely stressed out because of the expectations of their parents. One came from a 12 year old who was terrified she might not hang on to her #1  spot in her class and the possible disappointment to the family. she was truly traumatized by the prospect of what woud happen if she didn’t keep her #1 ranking. So sad to read.

I hate to admit it but I am really getting much better about the vlogging thing! Quite miss it when I do not do one 🙂 The edits and uploading still take time but probably half the time that it took a few months ago!

Life is good and I have wonderful friends!

To watch the astonishing transformation of Beaner from abandoned to adored:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iJPW5vxBG5s

YouTube Channel Update – Week 14
Subscribers  1671
Views           from 120 countries
Blog views   1924

Lesson remembered :  something written in my autograph book from 55 years ago. Author unknown :  

“True friends are like diamonds
Precious and rare.
False friends, like autumn leaves
Are found everywhere”

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